in the begining: September 2010

Chemistry gone wrong

There was a boy, & a girl, Love at first sight. She liked what she seen, and thought he was right. They talked all night and all day. She was all fluttery inside. He made her so happy, made her feel Everything was right. for the first few days it was flirting and innocent love, this became strong, so strong that he was the first to say I love you. She was nervous, she would be seeing him again this particular night, she didn't know what to wear was even thinking what would she say or do when they seen each other. Once again she was so nervous. She had butterflies in her stomach and love in her heart, what was she to do, was this really love? He made her believe it was, she finally got to his house. He came out to meet her and brought her inside showed her around and held her tight. She was so happy, so Amazed at who she had met, a wonderful guy who made her heart melt. She thought to her self, he is all I want and I'm going to keep him forever. He introduced her to his family, she thought they were nice. Thought they must like her. Or was she wrong? Time went by as they talked, Laughed and shared hugs and Kisses. Wow It was great to have someone love her. The night grew Dark and The hugs grew tighter as they became tired and went off to bed. His bed was big and oh so comfy, He gave her hugs and kissed her goodnight. He kissed her once and said he was in love with her, Oh did her heart melt right there, right then. She was so Happy she couldn't believe who she meet, but things went fast and feelings grew strong. Was this what he wanted? Was this who she was going to spend forever with?
Was this the man of her dreams or was it all wrong? They snuggled together, There bodies were warm as they fell asleep in the late of the night. Next thing she knows it's time to go home, she didn't want to leave him all on his own. But off she went toddled off home. thinking about her night with the man she loved most. She couldn't be more happier, with the man of her dreams, She knew he loved her Just knew he was real. That night she sat up thinking about him. And the way he said I love you and the way he kissed her. They planed to see each other the next day, just for the day a few hours at least, They spent time together, talking once again. taking some photos To post over myspace. Something seemed strange she just wasn't sure so when she left she asked what was wrong, he said he wasn't sure about being together. Her head was spinning what would she do. He told her he loved her but just wasn't sure, didn't think he was ready to commit any more. All that night she stressed and she stressed, Wondering what she had done wrong, did she wear the wrong dress? No that wasn't it, not at all. They decided to stay together but he said not to tell anyone, and happy she was, she loved him oh so much. Days went by as she felt things were strange and he promised her they weren't and things will always be the same. It became Friday, she knew he would be out that night as she thought about all the possibilities, no one knew they were together, what if he cheated. She told him how she felt he said not to worry everything will be fine don't you worry, said he loved her and he wanted to marry her. Then they did not talk for the rest of the lonely night, she went to bed without any worries thinking her man loved her enough, to keep his hand to himself for just one night. He was coming to her home the very next day so she was sure he still loved her. Morning came and still no talk. Why? she asked why could this be. She called him he didn't want to talk, he put a friend on so she hung up. She was beginning to worry, stressing so much, this was no good for a mum and her baby so young. She then asked if he was coming to see her, he said no he made plans to party with his boys. So now she thinks she isn't important enough for her love to spend a night with her just one, Just one. She waited for him to talk, but still nothing, No acknowledgment not even a bit. She began to cry thinking it was over, Had something gone wrong what has she done. The day got worse as he began to guilt trip her, was this the man she loved? a liar? Time went by he then broke her heart, that was the end, and no more to start. She asked if he had cheated if that was the reason. He did not reply, she thought no, that could not be it Maybe he was just tired and didn't want to talk. Later on she thought she would ask again, did you cheat she said he replied yes! That was it, she was so hurt, her heart had just sunk to the low of her stomach, Was she not good enough for him? Or was he just using her like a toy Just to Play? She Yelled a bit more then put it rest, figured the hurt would be gone by the morning. But No, he said sorry to her and said he doesn't like her anymore, she knew this would happen, she knew it wasn't right. She then found out he has a new girlfriend the one he cheated with, was the one he wanted more, but yet it wasn't meant to happen. But yes, Life goes on, and we are all Strong for people who cheat are just chemistry gone wrong.

Things are never as they seem, never as expected, never what you want, or what you believe.
There is never a right answer, or a wrong, we are never going to know the real answer, the real reason behind anything that happens in life.
As the night falls, the thinking begins. The thoughts start rolling in. As we try and fall asleep, every question we have ever asked, start to gain answers.
As we wake from slumber, we forget what the nights questions brought.
We progress to ask more, and answer less.

Needless to say, life isn't as easy as that. It's never going to be as simple as we hope it to be.
I lie under the tree's the clouds form there unusual patterns, I try to make something out of them, the tree's sway, the wind blows and the storm rumbles toward me and blows the patterned clouds away.
I then realize, that day is not the day the questions are answered, tomorrow I will try again.
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